Hello. I'll try not to complain and whine like I used to. Just explain what's wrong with me. I haven't worked for almost a year - I left my job because I wanted to find something better. Do something very good and soulful. Looking back, nothing worked out for me. I'm very lazy and slow down. I don't care. I lead a chaotic lifestyle. I don’t mean drinking and partying. I'm just indulging myself. I don't have any case. Just too lazy to do anything. So much so that I recently let a friend down at work. He is a freelancer.
I'm getting moody. I don't behave independently. I'm scared to imagine what awaits me. But I can’t even imagine - I’m too lazy.
Packing up and leaving - starting to live in the village - is too lazy. Thinking about marriage is scary and lazy, because I don’t think I can meet someone with whom my life will be happy (now that’s how I feel) and in the end it’s clear what will happen. By all measures, I don’t want anything. Everything is lazy. Just eat, eat, eat.
I'm not fat and I can't say that I like to eat, but I eat...why? because at this moment I forget myself.
And force yourself to become human. By the way, my loved ones no longer take me seriously. Friends see this too. At heart I am a strong and active person. I know it. God lives in my soul. But today I woke up and said mentally - God! And in response, the thought came - what do you want if you push me away. Basically, I specifically avoid perfection. I'm depressed by the fact (just listen) that OTHERS CAN'T MAKE ME HAPPY. And I myself...cough. A lot of thoughts - don't take everything seriously - because I have a mess in my head. I'm not sure I want to get out yet.
Help. I could Create. I am a young girl and I am sorry that I am living my life in vain.
I constantly quarrel with my relatives and cause them a lot of trouble. They are sad because of me. The pity of others does not save me. Maybe I just don't feel the value of the life God has given me.
Please don't pass by...
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Masha, age: 24 / 01/04/2012
Responses:Maria, it was very pleasant to read your letter, it is sincere and frank. And you are probably the same, well, at times for sure. :) So, I’m expressing my thoughts, don’t blame me if something is wrong.
The big is not possible without the small, and the small, oddly enough, is hindered by the big. That is, it is impossible to make and carry out serious plans without a clear regime, basic organization, and self-discipline, but when it comes to the fact that you need to regularly clean your room, play sports, fulfill your daily obligations, then you just feel sorry for the time for this, everything seems like that empty and useless, repeating cycle, it's a shame to waste your life doing something obviously pointless. And we find ourselves in a circle from which there is no way out, we don’t do big things because we don’t have enough energy and strength, because we don’t have the skill to overcome, and the little things “don’t deserve us.” Well, what is the recipe in such a difficult situation? Without the small there is no big, and this is still primary, so let’s start with the little things, when we do the small we turn off the “great man born to solve all the problems of the universe.” Going for a run is an almost insurmountable feat for me now, I am a small little but brave person in this big and cold world, and I will be so good if I manage to come up with some kind of encouragement for myself, not just eat-eat-eat, and for starters, there is something that you love for something, today you are great, get a pie from the shelf for it. You can definitely come to an agreement with the girl inside you. Try it! She (the child inside you) of course sometimes stalls, slows down and blows her lips, demanding everything for herself, but she is an inexhaustible source of creative energy and creativity. Find your path!
And of course, always and everywhere the most universal way is prayer. Only prayer, as a personal appeal, an appeal that is always heard. But for this it is better to go to Church. Good luck to you, dear, people usually suffer from such conditions capable people, but the consequences can be severe if order is not restored in time. Forward! New Year- New life!
Olga, age: 39 / 01/05/2012
Olga, thank you very much for these nice words. I am really, of course, very pleased to read this.
You are very right. I need to plan everything down to the smallest detail. Everything, everything, everything. To the smallest detail.
And maybe I need to be alone. So as not to miss a minute :)
I’ll probably write and add a little later. Now my head doesn't bother me.
Masha, age: 24 / 01/06/2012
Dear Mashenka, have you ever thought that we have very little time? You don’t know exactly how much you are allotted, do you? What if it’s only 5-10 years? (after all, this happens). And time flies, flows away like water through your fingers. And then you will have to appear before the Almighty and give him an account. What exactly have you done in this life? What life problem did you solve? What did you create? Who did you give birth to or raise? Who did you help? In a word, have you completed your mission? What will you answer?...
Therefore, urgently get up from the couch and do what you came into the World for. To begin with, you can do something good for your family and friends.
And then, take care of your beautiful body, do not overfeed, but prepare it for important tasks, it will be needed later.
Galchenok, age: 41 / 01/07/2012
Same kind of nonsense. keep afloat the obligations assumed when entering the institute) make you move somehow... and in general, patristic books and the Sacraments of the Church will help you. if your conscience starts to tug at you, get up off the couch, they say!.. but it’s hard to argue with her...
Alyonka, age: 19 / 01/08/2012
Masha, you will become very easy-going and will do something with fire if you do what you want in your soul. The first thing you need to do is feel your own desires. Laziness or not laziness, but just thinking about what you want is actually nice. For example, I want a country house for myself, and the thought that I will live there with my family, which I will build, makes me very happy and warm. And that is why I live for this purpose. (but not for her alone) Find in yourself what you really want. If everything is lazy, start with the simplest thing - I want to eat. Well, eat. Over time, you will get tired of it and want something else). Laziness retreats where there is a burning desire. I think you can handle it.
Artem, age: 26 / 01/08/2012
"Everything is lazy. I just eat, eat, eat."
And I’m wondering what kind of shit you eat-eat-eat for if you don’t work? And isn’t it a shame to sit on someone’s neck, healthy mare, or are you disabled? You need a good kick from your relatives so that you can go to work.
By the way, I’m also 24 years old, I’ve been working since I was 19, I’m finishing college, I’m going to go to get my driving license, I’m saving up money for a car. Then I'm going to renovate the apartment.
What I mean is that you need to set a goal in life and constantly do something. And from idleness we are visited by depressed people. And no prayer will help.
You were born to leave a good light in life, a child (and maybe more than one) And what can you give him if you yourself have no soil under your feet??? Never rely on anyone, especially men (today he is with you, and tomorrow with another), you yourself must have at least some kind of base (stable job and income, first of all)
How to understand that life is in vain? It seems that everyone around you lives exactly the same way... But you have a feeling of dissatisfaction and emptiness that prevents you from enjoying the moment. Here are 13 signs you're wasting your life.
You live day after day and realize that life is wasted. It feels like you're stuck in a dead spot and can't change anything for the better. But that's not true. All in your hands. You just need to analyze some things and try to change them. And then favorable changes will not take long to arrive.
How to understand that life is wasted: 13 signs
1. You devote a lot of time to things that make no sense at all.
All kinds computer games, indiscriminately watching various reality shows on TV, “communicating” with a mobile phone, abusing food and alcohol. The list can be continued, taking into account individual interests.
Take a look at your life from the outside. What do you spend the lion's share of your precious time on? Does this bring you any benefit? Does it make your life better, more meaningful? If the answer is “no,” urgently change something in your daily routine.
2. You complain all the time.
There are people who find their life very difficult, and they whine about it nonstop. Maybe you have already become like these characters? If you like to complain about your hateful job, your stupid boss, your low salary, your alcoholic neighbors, or your unworthy partner, you are simply spreading negativity around you. And he can't change anything. But it prevents you from moving forward in life.
Urgently get rid of this habit and, on the contrary, talk more often about what is good in your life.
3. You're not feeding your mind.
If you don't develop and learn (no matter how old you are), stagnation will certainly occur. Your brain, like a pond of stagnant water, is “overgrown with mud.” Read, be interested, learn something new, develop.
4. You are mired in negativity.
Inner dialogue affects your life. As Henry Ford said: “Whether you think you will succeed or that you will fail, you are right.”
If you systematically tell yourself that you are not smart and energetic enough to get a promotion or start your own business, you will definitely be so. If you tell yourself that you are tired in order to change anything, absolutely nothing will happen.
What we tell ourselves will sooner or later become our reality.
Control your internal dialogue, rebuild it. And you will notice how your life gradually adapts to your thoughts.
5. You are uninspired
Do you have a hobby or passion? It never happens that nothing brings joy and does not give pleasure. You will definitely find something you like or a hobby. Dedicate as much of your free time to him as possible.
6. You don't plan for your own future.
Of course, it is important to fully experience the present moment, but you need to think about what you expect from the future. If you don't have a specific goal, you float through life like a boat without control. This is not a very good strategy.
Imagine that you have an imaginary sensor inside of you that guides you to your goal. Listen to him and draw up a rough action plan that will help you get closer to your desired goal.
7. You spend a lot of time with people who drag you back.
They influence you negatively, they pull you vital energy and they don't give anything in return. With such people it is impossible to achieve progress and self-improvement. Keep your interactions with them to a minimum. Spend more time with smart and successful people. In this way, you will gradually build your success.
8. You are addicted to your phone
No one argues that a telephone is a necessary and even irreplaceable device, but you should not pick it up unless absolutely necessary. After all, this has already become a habit for you. Is it true? And how much time is wasted when moving from application to application or on social networks.
9. You spend money on things you don't need.
There is a huge difference between “need” and “want”, but modern society consumption, this boundary is quite blurred.
But if you think about it, a person actually doesn’t need that much to live - food, a roof over his head and love (this is at a minimum).
Look at your spending and think about what you could give up. Learn moderation - this is a very useful quality.
10. You don't get enough sleep
Lack of sleep has a negative impact on your overall health, nervous system, performance, mood. Try to go to bed before midnight. Don't sit half the night in front of a flickering monitor.
11. You don't think about your health
We will not discover America if we say that proper nutrition and physical activity are necessary for everyone. Try maintaining a balanced, healthy diet, moving more and spending time outdoors. fresh air. This will have a positive effect on your weight, mental state and performance.
12. You are afraid to leave your comfort zone.
Of course it's easier this way. But the bad thing is that because of the fear of discomfort, you do not try at all to change your life for the better. Sometimes you need to take risks and shake things up. Don’t give up on good things just because you will need to leave your comfort zone to achieve your plans.
P.S. And remember, just by changing your consciousness, we are changing the world together! © econet
I got hooked on trans when I was 13..
Maturity is different: sexual and cerebral.
Again, it depends on the person himself, because we develop strictly individually =)those who have mental problems, chronic neuroses
You can be baptized without godparents after 18, so godparents can be younger (again, if he/she is over 18)
There is no need to look for ideal people. This cannot be, because everything is relative and changeable - what seemed ideal yesterday, today suddenly you don’t like it, everything is unstable in the world.
But I have met people with a comfortable, kind, good character more than once. But they also have their periodic twists :)
You can change your character at any age if you work on yourself. Whoever says that this is impossible simply justifies the laziness of the soul. There is no formed age.
How to change? To want. Engage in self-development.
(in our age of accessible information - books, the Internet, it is strange and absurd not to get the knowledge you strive for; it is even stupid to stop in your development)
Better than those who give birth every year since the age of 17, without stopping, and think that this is normal, because the husband/mother/state, etc. They will help and in general, “all the happiness is in the children.”
Yes, they just don’t have enough sex, so they fuck each other’s brains)
Are real friends childhood friends? Is it still possible to find good friends, or will all this no longer be the case?
Of course you can. It’s just that with age, a lot of problems and responsibilities accumulate. The concept of friendship is changing and that's not a bad thing. Of course it won’t be like it was in childhood. You no longer look at the world through rose-colored glasses. Life will show who is a friend and who is so-so. Other values just appear. Such as family, career, etc. You have to make a choice. You just need to change your attitude towards the very concept of friendship. Remain just people and treat any disagreements in relationships with understanding. Analyze your actions and actions towards you.
Of course, none of us wants to live in vain. But if you feel that everything is not going as it should, that life is passing you by, and you are like a passenger on a train rushing at breakneck speed, going to an unknown destination, then this article will help you.
This is not an unfounded statement - I specifically interviewed people, and these were the reasons they named as the main obstacle to happy life, which you won’t regret later. I based this article on these conversations. Friends, please read and draw your conclusions. And we will be incredibly happy if this information makes your life better. Well, let's get started!
1) Find your purpose, follow your dreams, do what you love. Life without a goal is a life in vain. The worst thing is that the understanding of the need to have a goal is mainly only among those people who already have life goals. And people live without a goal and don’t even think about the fact that everything could be completely different...☹️
2) Allow yourself to be yourself and others to be different. Friends, no one and nothing in this world is obliged to meet our expectations. And we ourselves are not obliged to meet other people's expectations and standards.
Only we ourselves can understand what our soul desires. And following the call of the soul is ours. We are often led astray by false paths, other people's goals, imposed beliefs. And thus we live someone else’s life, not allowing ourselves to open up.
And on the contrary, it sets us up to see possibilities, have a kind attitude towards ourselves, people and the world, attract good luck, joy, success and happiness.
It’s simple, dear readers of SZOZH: we think about the good, and we get more good things. If we focus on the bad, we end up with even more problems and troubles.
Why is this happening?
When we think about something, we transmit certain waves or vibrations into the world. And the world responds. What we are more focused on is what we ultimately receive from the world.
“No, everything is happening quite the opposite! I get something first and only then think about it!” - the incredulous reader will say. In fact, in the lives of each of us, a closely intertwined cycle of events and thoughts has formed. And if we need to break out of this cycle (for example, we don’t like spinning in it, there is too much negativity), then we need to change not only what happens to us, but also the way we think. The law of attraction is inexorable: it works regardless of whether we believe in it or not.
In order not to live your life in vain, you should definitely get rid of bad thoughts(at least from most of them). Put other thoughts in their place - positive ones, and you will be surprised how much your life will change.
, not at the destination. You can spend your whole life chasing goals, but if the process itself doesn’t excite you, then these are not your goals. there must be fire in the eyes and pleasure in the very process of achieving this goal.
If we realize that happiness is on the way, and not at the finish line, then the process of achieving this goal turns into an everyday holiday that will never get boring.
Any negativity will be overcome with ease if you really like the direction you have chosen. You will be able to overcome all difficulties and solve any problems. It is the right direction that gives us the understanding that happiness is here and now.
There is no past and no future. There is only the present, and it is up to us how we relate to it: we accept and rejoice, or we turn away with disgust. If you ignore the present and look for happiness in the past/future, then rest assured that life will pass you by. Please don't let this happen! If you don't like the world, then either change it, or just forget about what you can't change. One out of two.
Enjoying the little things is the key to a happy life. When we pay attention to pleasant little things, our life is filled with them at a much faster rate. In addition, by doing this we attract not only small, but also major happiness into our lives.
7) Constantly develop and improve yourself. Friends, There is no such thing as standing still. By choosing one of these paths, we attract all its attributes to ourselves. Every day, making our choice, we find ourselves either on the path of development or on the path of destruction. And wherever we end up, it’s all the result of our choice.
This is why it is so important to take at least small but regular steps towards self-development. Any, even the most insignificant step can be the beginning of an amazing adventure. So let's take more steps like this! It’s so interesting to become better day by day. Yes, this is a million times cooler than any computer RPG game!
Constant self-improvement is a guarantee that our life will not be in vain. In addition to the fact that you will enjoy the process of your development (the main thing is to find the areas in which you are interested in developing), you will also achieve good results.
Development is an integral attribute of a happy life. Well, seriously, you can’t degrade and be happy. Only development, only self-improvement.
✅ Lifestyle and Healthy Lifestyle is a site for those who want to develop and help others develop. On the site you can write articles and share knowledge, ask questions and get answers. Lifestyle and lifestyle is a community of like-minded people, and this is the most important thing - to have people with similar aspirations nearby. Friends, we are very glad that you are with us!
CONCLUSION
No one would like to live their life in vain. So I conducted a survey of different people age categories(but mostly older ones) and figured out how to prevent this from happening.
I will be happy if you apply these tips and get good results. Good luck, friends!
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Vitaly Kaloev about his fate and the film where he was played by Arnold Schwarzenegger.
In 2002, Vitaly Kaloev lost his family in a plane crash over Lake Constance.
Due to an error by an employee of the air traffic control company Skyguide, two planes collided, killing 71 people, including Kaloyev’s wife and two children.
478 days later he killed air traffic controller Peter Nielsen and spent the next four years in a Swiss prison.
13 years later, a film was made about those events in the United States with Arnold Schwarzenegger in the title role. This is a drama about a man whose life was destroyed overnight. The prototype of Schwarzenegger's hero rarely communicates with journalists, but Vitaly Kaloev found time to talk about his fate.
Now he will have more free time. He recently celebrated his sixtieth birthday and retired. For eight years he worked as Deputy Minister of Construction of North Ossetia. He was appointed to this post shortly after his early release from a Swiss prison.
“Vitaly Konstantinovich Kaloev, whose fate is known on all continents of the globe, was awarded the Medal “For the Glory of Ossetia,” reports the website of the Ministry of Construction and Architecture of the republic. “On the day of his 60th birthday, he received this highest award from the hands of the Deputy Chairman of the Government of the Republic of North Ossetia-Alania, Boris Borisovich Dzhanaev.”
News from Hollywood and Vladikavkaz came in the second half of January with a difference of less than two weeks. “The film is based on real events: the plane crash in July 2002 and what happened 478 days later,” says the profile site imdb.com.
Vitaly's wife Svetlana and their children, eleven-year-old Konstantin and four-year-old Diana, died in the plane crash. They all flew to the head of the family in Spain, where Kaloev designed houses.
And on February 22, 2004, his attempt to talk to Peter Nielsen, an employee of the air traffic control company Skyguide, ended in the murder of the dispatcher on the threshold of his own home in the Swiss town of Kloten: twelve blows with a pocket knife.
“I knocked. “Nilsen came out,” Kaloev told Komsomolskaya Pravda reporters in March 2005. “I first motioned for him to invite me into the house.” But he slammed the door.
I called again and told him: Ich bin Russland. I remember these words from school. He said nothing. I took out photographs that showed the bodies of my children. I wanted him to look at them. But he pushed my hand away and sharply gestured for me to get out... Like a dog: get out.
Well, I said nothing, I was offended. Even my eyes filled with tears. I extended my hand to him with the photographs for the second time and said in Spanish: “Look!” He slapped me on the hand and the pictures flew off. And it started from there.”
Later, Skyguide's guilt in the plane crash was recognized by the court, and several of Nielsen's colleagues received suspended sentences. Kaloev was sentenced to eight years, but was released early in November 2008.
In Vladikavkaz, Deputy Minister Kaloev led federal and international projects: the television tower on Bald Mountain - beautiful, with a cable car, a rotating observation deck and a restaurant - and the Caucasian Music and Cultural Center named after Valery Gergiev, designed in the workshop of Norman Foster.
Vitaly Kaloev speaks more modestly and harshly about personal achievements: “I think that I lived my life in vain: I could not save my family.
What depended on me is the second question.” Vitaly avoids detailed judgments about what does not depend on him. The film "478" is no exception. Kaloev, in principle, appreciates Arnold Schwarzenegger for his roles as “big, kind men.” At the same time, the prototype is confident: Schwarzenegger (Victor in the film) will play what is written in the script, from which Vitaly does not expect anything good.
“If it were at the everyday level, there would be one question. But here is Hollywood, politics, ideology, relations with Russia,” he says.
The main thing Vitaly asks is: there is no need to show that he fled somewhere, like in a European film based on the same plot. “He came openly, he left openly, he didn’t hide from anyone. Everything is in the case materials, everything is reflected.”
The authors of the Hollywood film assure that in the role of Victor, Schwarzenegger will reveal himself in a new way - not as “the last action hero,” but as a purely dramatic artist. Actually, if you follow real events, it won’t work out any other way. “At ten in the morning I was at the scene of the tragedy,” Kaloev testifies. - I saw all these bodies - I froze in tetanus and could not move. A village near Uberlingen, the school had its headquarters there. And nearby, at an intersection, as it turned out later, my son fell. I still can’t forgive myself for driving nearby and not feeling anything, not recognizing him.”
To the question “maybe you need to forgive yourself more?” there is no direct answer. There is a reflection on what brought Vitaly Kaloev fame “on all continents of the globe”: “If a person did something for the sake of his loved ones and relatives, he cannot regret it later. And you can’t feel sorry for yourself. If you feel sorry for yourself for half a second, you will go down, you will sink. Especially when you are sitting: there is nowhere to rush, there is no communication, all sorts of thoughts creep into your head - this, and this, and this. God forbid you feel sorry for yourself.”
About Peter Nielsen’s family, where there are three children left, Vitaly said eight years ago: “His children are growing up healthy, cheerful, his wife is happy with her children, his parents are happy with their grandchildren. Who should I be happy about?”
It seems that most of all Kaloev feels sorry for the German volunteers and police officers from the summer of 2002: “My instincts became sharper to the point that I began to understand what the Germans were talking about among themselves, without knowing the language. I wanted to participate in the search work - they tried to send me away, but it didn’t work. They gave us an area further away where there were no bodies. I found some things, plane wreckage. I understood then, and I understand now, that they were right. They really couldn’t gather the required number of policemen in time - who was there, they took away half of them: some fainted, some did something else.”
The Germans, according to Vitaly, “are generally very sincere people, simple.” “I hinted that I would like to erect a monument in the place where my girl fell, - instantly one German woman began to help and began collecting funds,” says Kaloev. And he immediately returns to the days of the search: “I put my hands on the ground - I tried to understand where the soul remained: in this place, in the ground - or flew away somewhere. I moved my hands - some roughness. He began to take out the glass beads that were on her neck. I started collecting it and then showed it to people. Later, one architect made a common monument there - with a torn string of beads.”
Vitaly Kaloev is trying to remember everyone who helped him.
It turns out not quite: “A lot of guys from everywhere gave money, for example, to my older brother Yuri, so that he would come to Switzerland once again and visit me.”
For two years, every month they sent “a hundred local money in an envelope to buy cigarettes” to Kaloyev’s cell; on the envelope is the letter W, the secret of which the grateful recipient still wants to know.
Special thanks - naturally, to Taimuraz Mamsurov, the head of North Ossetia at that time: “I appointed him to the ministry here, helped there. To not be afraid to come, as it was believed, to a criminal, a murderer, for trial in Zurich, to support him, was worth a lot for a leader of such rank.” Special gratitude goes to Aman Tuleyev, governor of the Kemerovo region: “Three or four times he simply gave money, part of his salary. And in Moscow he also gave me so that I could dress up a little.”
And the letters, Kaloev recalls, came from everywhere - from Russia, Europe, Canada and Australia. “Even from Switzerland itself I received two letters: the authors apologized very much to me for what happened. When I was released, they said that I could take 15 kilograms with me. I went through the letters, removed the envelopes - there was still more than twenty kilos of mail alone. They looked and said: “Okay, take both the mail and your things.”
“The Swiss deported Kaloev quietly and unnoticed.
“I arrived, I didn’t expect that I would be greeted so warmly in Moscow. Maybe it was unnecessary - but in any case it’s nice,” says Vitaly Kaloev eight years later.
“It is impossible to teach how to live after this,” he assures when it comes to the relatives of those killed in the plane crash over Sinai. - The pain may have dulled a little, but it does not go away. You can force yourself into work, you have to work - at work a person is distracted: you work, you solve people’s problems... But there is no recipe. I still haven't recovered. But there is no need to give up. If you need to cry, cry, but it’s better to do it alone: no one saw me with tears, I didn’t show them anywhere. Maybe, perhaps, on the very first day. We must live with the destiny that is destined for us. Live and help people."
Receptions with Deputy Minister Kaloyev on personal matters, of course, practically did not stop for all eight years: national tradition plus the status of a famous fellow countryman. Ask for money for medicine, building materials for repairs, to arrange a high-tech operation for someone,” Vitaly lists. - I know both my colleague ministers and their deputies - you turn to them. It didn't always work out, but something did work out. Forty to fifty percent.” The schools that received the least refusals were those from which they came for new windows or major repairs. Or even a lecture from the Deputy Minister - “for high school students, about what principles should be in a person’s life.”
A separate line includes calls to Kaloyev from the colonies. “I don’t know how they found out my phone number. “Can you send me some cigarettes?” - Of course, I'll send it. There was a man named Kuznetsov, he knocked down an Uzbek with one blow in St. Petersburg when he began to pester his son. They organized a teleconference, I came out in support of him.”
Now, most of all, Vitaly wants to be left alone: “I want to live as a private person - that’s it, I don’t even go to work.” First, the heart: bypass surgery. Secondly, Vitaly got married last year, thirteen years after the tragedy. The only thing he would like “from the public” is to come to Moscow on Victory Day, to join the “Immortal Regiment” with a portrait of his father: Konstantin Kaloev, artilleryman.
“I was provoked a lot on the topic of how, for example, Bashkiria, where most of those killed on that plane are from, differs from Ossetia, Ossetia from central Russia,” says Vitaly. - They meant, of course, to lead to conversations about blood feud and similar things. I always answered this way: it is absolutely no different, because we are all Russians. A person who loves his family, his children, will do anything for them. There are many people like me in Russia. If I had not gone and completed this path - I just wanted to talk to him, accept an apology - then after death I would not have had a place next to my family. I wouldn't want to be buried next to them. I wouldn't be worthy of it. And for them we are all Russians anyway. Incomprehensible, scary Russians.”
